Hate Myself!

why i'm so stupid?
ntg can be done properly by me
everything pass to me the things will be spoil!
he asked me
"When can u did something good or without any problem?"
i couldn't answer him as i also don't know when only i can be smart!
may be i'm a troublemaker.
Always make troubles and in the end spoiled his mood.
most of our dates end with those unhappiness.
and i was the one who create these unhappiness to him.
he scolded me for 100 times or maybe more than that just for the same things.
n now he's not scolding me but then change to advice.
everyday kept advising me on the same things..
but i did not have any improvement but just felt fed up on what his scolding.

Today the same thing happen AGAIN!
why am i so troublemaker?T_T
keep asking myself
Why i'm so good in making ppl angry?
Is time to wake myself to reality of the world.
is time to train myself not to be so careless n clumsy!
but how to train?!

maybe set some principles for myself n make sure i follow it strictly everyday!
those principles are:
1. Ask everything before make my decision - DONT FEEL SHY TO ASK THOSE STRANGERS
2. Be precise,check everything
3. Time management - BE PUNCTUAL
4. MONEY IS IMPORTANT - remove the mindset of treating ppl meals when i'm wrong!
5. KEEP FIT in 3 months times
6. Take good care on my belonging
7. Cure my facial problems
8. SLEEP EARLY - b4 1.30AM
9. Drink 8 cups of water per day
10. No delay on settlement of problems of the days!

Give me luck that i can achieve these targets! =)